[Accidental Video] ☠ A shadow fades in bright light.

[nightprince]

[ Ryoji hadn't noticed, but when he sat down on his bed, he accidentally turned his SFC on. Currently? The screen shows the little thought bubble following him around. His thoughts are vague, to an extent, at the moment, but what you'll notice is that the inside of the bubble is darker in color than most. Sort of like there's a little black mist inside it. The text on it is white. White, on black.

He's pacing in his dorm room at the moment. It's late, and he can't sleep. ]

He left.

[ A pause, a blink. A nod. It was reflecting his thoughts, huh? Yeah. But it wasn't really so bad... was it? An image of Minato--blue hair--comes up, then disappears. ]

It's my fault.

... I know.

[ Then an image of what looks like the moon, and then something big... with two sets wings, and a long sword. It's vague though, and it's hard to tell what it really is. It's only somewhat humanoid in shape. ]

Fighting it is... impossible. Maybe one day I'll just...

That won't happen...

[ This thought is a little more graphic. An image of some kids all wearing red armbands, being consumed by some sort of darkness, and then a hollow-looking, creepy white mask, eyeless, and smiling. And then lots of red blood. It flashes back as he shakes his head. ]

But how can it not, right?

I... I won't do that.

But I will. And then how will anyone stop me? You can't stop something like me. That's impossible.

It's... he did it. He still managed... it's okay. He's back now.

[ He takes a breath, getting up, and turns his back, trying to ignore that pestering, persistent, awful little bubble. He doesn't think it's so cool anymore. ]

But what if I do slip? What if they're wrong about how time passes? What then?

[ He falls silent. His biggest fears, and it was very, very right. He doesn't want to say it though. ]

I don't want to kill them. I don't want to hurt anyone. Vriska, Minato--I'm part of him but I took his life from him... because of me, his friends will never get to be with him at home. I really don't deserve to be a human, or even to feel. I never should have existed.

I... I really don't like this place right now... why does this have to happen to us? I hate these curses.

[ Eventually, Ryoji rests his head against a wall, closing his eyes, and biting his lip. The words keep going, though. Because he is, in fact, quite worried. ]

But blaming Vatheon isn't right. You wanted him to kill you because you're afraid, aren't you?

T-that isn't true. I've accepted it. It's inevitable.

[ The bubble continues heedlessly on, and Ryoji looks down at it with a defeated, pained expression. ] Without him, you don't even exist. Vriska, too! She validates your existence, but then when you're alone, what are you really? Just a shadow. A tool. Nyx's puppet. And then you don't even feel like you're real.

T-that's not true... I'm... I'm Ryoji. No one else. And I will never, ever be anything else. Minato-kun said so.

[ ... Ryoji tries to pop it as it continues on, but to no avail. After he tries to half-heartedly swat it away, he fails. So he instead returns to leaning his head against the dorm's wall, and then the feed cuts abruptly as a kitten hops onto the bed, and accidentally shuts the SFC off. ]

Comments

[myfayevalentine.livejournal.com]

*Faye has been watching, and apparently has been quite amused*

Hey, kid. You should cover that thing up...

[Text] Lmao sorry Faye, he's not going to talk to strangers well

[derparcana.livejournal.com]

[ Great. GREAT. He didn't even know-- ]



[ LET'S IGNORE THIS THING? Yes. ]

[text] Heheh. She figures :P

[myfayevalentine.livejournal.com]

Well...that's good. Don't wanna make yourself look vulnerable.

[text]

[formida8le.livejournal.com]

[]

[text]

[derparcana.livejournal.com]

[ That's not true at all, but you can't help but not tell her, right? Keep lying.

Silently thanking god she used text. Though he's a little... embarrassed she saw that. Oh well. ]

[text]

[formida8le.livejournal.com]

[Action?] Welp

[messianic]

[The moment he sees the video, he of course does what is necessary: he walks over to Ryoji's room, no matter the late hour, and knocks.]

Ryoji-kun?

[The thought bubble, trailing after him, has his own worries-- 'I hope he's okay' 'he shouldn't blame himself' 'this isn't fair' -- intermixed with his Personas -- 'death death fortune death Arcana'.

But he's adept at ignoring those voices in his head these days, and so he simply waits for the other to open the door.]

[Action foreverrrr] YEEEP

[derparcana.livejournal.com]

... Just ignore it, Minato-kun. It's stupid.

[ Floating there going on and on. Worry after worry. ]

But I don't want you to. What if I...

[ ARGH TRAITOR. ]

... Really, it's fine.

[messianic]

[His own thoughts are quiet, a stream of quiet murmurings in them that are too faint to read.

It isn't like him to confront, but sometimes-- 'Enough is enough']

No it isn't. Can I come in?

[mothersunlight]

...

[There's a lot of troubled souls here. Lots of very sad kids.

Ammy whines a bit, worried.]

[derparcana.livejournal.com]

[ ... Awww, doggy. How could he ignore her? Stupid accidental feed.

An image of this cute guy (http://i.imgur.com/RYxrb.png) pops up in the bubble. Ammy totally reminds him of Koromaru. ]

Ah? Hey there. Sorry, did I worry you? I'm alright.

[mothersunlight]

[A question mark pops into her bubble. Who's that dog?]

[Video]

[colorme-in.livejournal.com]

Ryoji...are you okay?

[An image of her gets drawn in her bubble, a sweet one with her comforting the poory boy. She doesn't want to see you sad. ;_;]

[Switching to Text] Oh Namine ;_;

[derparcana.livejournal.com]

[ ALKJHSKJHG. He hurriedly switches to text on his end. ]

[Video] /hugs D:

[colorme-in.livejournal.com]

Okay...if you say so.

[She falls silent, and the bubble draws out Ryoji looking upset with a question mark to it.]

...If you want company, I could come over.

[Action]

[chivalrygrudge.livejournal.com]

[He doesn't really understand what Ryoji is talking about, but he's one of Minato's friends, and a dormmate, so he knocks on Ryoji's door.]

... Ryoji-senpai?

[Action] Minato may threadjack this, probably.

[derparcana.livejournal.com]

[ ... Oh, god. Ken. He's from before, he can't know this stuff-- ]

O-oh! Ken-kun.

[ What does he say? ]

It's not a big deal, so please ignore it, okay? You don't need to worry about me.

[ He's not... opening the door just yet. He's a little worried about Ken finding out. ]

[Action] Fine with me! o7

[chivalrygrudge.livejournal.com]

... Are you all right?

[He's kind of worried about you now, in his tsuntsun way.]

[treasurehunted.livejournal.com]

[It's the massive amounts of angst that catch his attention, and the familiar name that manages to keep it. There's a pause and the pirate keeps his end on voice- the thought bubble might give away a little too much right now.]

Oi. Listen to the kid- Minato. He's tellin' you the right thing.

But you know, he can only take you so much of the way. Still at odds with yourself?

[text] fff sorry he's not up to talking at all, to be honest.

[derparcana.livejournal.com]

welp. too bad. aniki's here. [audio forever]

[treasurehunted.livejournal.com]

... hah. "Something like that."

Doesn't matter- we're not talking about him right now. Kid gets too much attention as is.

You still fighting with yourself?

text is the troll way

[toreuhhhdork.livejournal.com]

[text] true enough; he's used to it from Vriska |D

[derparcana.livejournal.com]

[Text; filtered]

[boundbynaught.livejournal.com]

Who is Minato?

[Text; filtered]

[derparcana.livejournal.com]