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[ Ryoji hadn't noticed, but when he sat down on his bed, he accidentally turned his SFC on. Currently? The screen shows the little thought bubble following him around. His thoughts are vague, to an extent, at the moment, but what you'll notice is that the inside of the bubble is darker in color than most. Sort of like there's a little black mist inside it. The text on it is white. White, on black.

He's pacing in his dorm room at the moment. It's late, and he can't sleep. ]


He left.

[ A pause, a blink. A nod. It was reflecting his thoughts, huh? Yeah. But it wasn't really so bad... was it? An image of Minato--blue hair--comes up, then disappears. ]

It's my fault.

... I know.

[ Then an image of what looks like the moon, and then something big... with two sets wings, and a long sword. It's vague though, and it's hard to tell what it really is. It's only somewhat humanoid in shape. ]

Fighting it is... impossible. Maybe one day I'll just...

That won't happen...

[ This thought is a little more graphic. An image of some kids all wearing red armbands, being consumed by some sort of darkness, and then a hollow-looking, creepy white mask, eyeless, and smiling. And then lots of red blood. It flashes back as he shakes his head. ]

But how can it not, right?

I... I won't do that.

But I will. And then how will anyone stop me? You can't stop something like me. That's impossible.

It's... he did it. He still managed... it's okay. He's back now.

[ He takes a breath, getting up, and turns his back, trying to ignore that pestering, persistent, awful little bubble. He doesn't think it's so cool anymore. ]

But what if I do slip? What if they're wrong about how time passes? What then?

[ He falls silent. His biggest fears, and it was very, very right. He doesn't want to say it though. ]

I don't want to kill them. I don't want to hurt anyone. Vriska, Minato--I'm part of him but I took his life from him... because of me, his friends will never get to be with him at home. I really don't deserve to be a human, or even to feel. I never should have existed.

I... I really don't like this place right now... why does this have to happen to us? I hate these curses.

[ Eventually, Ryoji rests his head against a wall, closing his eyes, and biting his lip. The words keep going, though. Because he is, in fact, quite worried. ]

But blaming Vatheon isn't right. You wanted him to kill you because you're afraid, aren't you?

T-that isn't true. I've accepted it. It's inevitable.

[ The bubble continues heedlessly on, and Ryoji looks down at it with a defeated, pained expression. ] Without him, you don't even exist. Vriska, too! She validates your existence, but then when you're alone, what are you really? Just a shadow. A tool. Nyx's puppet. And then you don't even feel like you're real.

T-that's not true... I'm... I'm Ryoji. No one else. And I will never, ever be anything else. Minato-kun said so.

[ ... Ryoji tries to pop it as it continues on, but to no avail. After he tries to half-heartedly swat it away, he fails. So he instead returns to leaning his head against the dorm's wall, and then the feed cuts abruptly as a kitten hops onto the bed, and accidentally shuts the SFC off. ]

[text]

Date: 2011-05-13 07:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com


[Quirk off! She is DEAD serious.]

Edited Date: 2011-05-13 07:15 am (UTC)

[text]

Date: 2011-05-14 03:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
[ ... Holy shit, she is very serious. ... A sigh. ]

[text] -> [action]

Date: 2011-05-14 07:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com


[Click! After 3 minutes, here she is.]

[action]

Date: 2011-05-14 10:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
[ Why on earth would he run away? He doesn't feel the need. He doesn't run away from his problems. ... He tries to fix them. And if he can't do that, he does his best to deal with them.

A moment's pause. ]


... There's something I need to show you. But you have to promise me you won't freak out or anything, alright?

[ ... Not that he thinks she'll flip out, but... well. Just in case. ]

[action]

Date: 2011-05-14 10:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com
Ryoji, please. I've probably seen much worse.

[Sitting on his bed!]

[action forever; 1/2]

Date: 2011-05-14 10:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
... Alright.

[ There's a brief moment's pause, before a light about as bright as what Vriska herself can make fills the room. A foreboding feeling of coldness and death fills it, along with the rattling of chains. ]

[2/2]

Date: 2011-05-14 11:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
[ ... And then there is this thing (http://i.imgur.com/Tdshg.png) floating where he was.

When he speaks, there's no mouth or even any movement, merely the floating of the coffins and chains around him. His voice sounds like it's been run through some sort of strange machine: dark, distorted. ]


... This what I actually am. The form you know is one that was created entirely by accident because of how I came into existence about ten years ago.

Date: 2011-05-14 11:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com
[Blink. Blink. Blink. She's not afraid, just... astonished. Her own bubble flashes pictures of her and Feferi's lusus. She used to be afraid of them. But now she's not.

...



She pauses for a moment, thinking of something to say. A bunch of random words are running through the bubble before she finally says:]


Would it be out of place to say you look pretty cool?

[1/2]

Date: 2011-05-14 12:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
[ He isn't, no, and for a brief moment, he floats there quietly. ]

No. But this form is paradoxical... though it's how I truly am.

[ There is a brief flash, coffins growing fainter. ]

[2/2]

Date: 2011-05-14 12:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
... It comes with a price.

[ And in an instant, 'Ryoji' is back. ]

My 'human' form will disappear and become inaccessible if I return back... or probably if I come back here after that. I can't say for sure. I've been well aware of what would happen from the start... though this is the form I've taken to staying in, it never should have existed.

Date: 2011-05-14 01:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com
[Gosh, you big baby. Here is her pride going down the drain. She stands up and hugs him.]

You're dumb.
Edited Date: 2011-05-14 01:12 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-05-14 01:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
[ ... Awww, Vriska. Ryoji gives her a hug back, then smiles. ]

Maybe I am. I don't know. But you wanted the truth, so I'll tell you. I think you deserve to at least know what you're dealing with, here.

Date: 2011-05-14 01:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com
Whatever. I'm a big, strong Thief of Light, not a little wriggler. If you disappear, Minato and I will just find a way to get you back!

[Breaking the hug because touchy feely things ew.]

Date: 2011-05-14 01:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
... It's nice to know I'm in good hands, then.

[ Aww, Vriska. He won't say a word. c: Just a smile, before he sits down quietly on the bed. ]

But I'm still grateful for what I have. When I was created by people... I didn't have this form. I've wondered about it a lot... what would have happened if I hadn't gotten where I am now? But... I'm here now.

Maybe you'll be able to... bring me back.

In more ways than one.

Date: 2011-05-14 02:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com
Yeah! You don't have to think about that stuff, or that silly stuff with your mom, because you're here, and you're okay.

Not maybe. I will.

Date: 2011-05-14 04:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
... The real problem is what I mentioned before. Nyx is... in my world, it's going to end on January 31st. The option I've given him... I just wish he would make the right choice.

But I know he won't.

[ He looks down. ] Well... I guess it's the right choice. But... I'll lose this form if I go back at all. And my mind will go with it--I'll just become her puppet. I was that way before I had free will... and I don't want to be that way again. I like being a person.

[ ... That white mask and the wings... the thing that showed up before appears in his own bubble this time. ]

But I've been fighting her for so long... she created everything, so she can take it away. But she's doing it because people just want an easy way out. And that's not right... but what can I do? No matter what happens... this body will vanish completely.

Death... wasn't meant to be given a form.

Date: 2011-05-15 06:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com
She's... not here. And you're not just Death anymore. You're also Ryoji, and you're your own thing and you have a lot of friends too!

[This... optimistic talk makes sense to her!]

Date: 2011-05-15 09:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
... I am...?

[ ... It's like this is entirely new information to him. Actually, good job, Vriska. ]

... I am. You're right. I can't... take back what I did... the people I've killed... but I can do better here! Because there are people here who need me, so... I have a reason to be around.

[ A pause. ]

Vriska-chan, you and Minato-kun... you guys make me feel wanted. It's... it's nice. Thank you.

Date: 2011-05-15 09:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com
Duh, obviously you are wanted, you dumb boy. So cheer up! Vatheon is, like, a new start for you and me both.

Date: 2011-05-15 10:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
... Yeah. You're right. We're working on it. We've got aaaaaaaall the time we need here, after all.

[ Vriska he is picking up your eight second dramaaaaaaaatic habits. ]

Date: 2011-05-15 11:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com
All of it.

[Happy things in the bubble!]

Are you finally feeling better?

Date: 2011-05-16 08:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
Yeah. Sorry.

[ He's... ridiculously happy right now, actually. ]

Vriska-chan, you know, you're really right. You're changing, too. In a lot of good ways. I'm really proud.

[ He is beaming. It shows. ]

Date: 2011-05-16 09:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] formida8le.livejournal.com
No way. I'm just a huge bitch, but maybe one with a soft spot for you.

Date: 2011-05-17 06:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] derparcana.livejournal.com
You're not fooling anyone but yourself here, Vriska-chan!

[ He just laughs. He can't help it. ]

But if you say so. Just know that I'll never buy it.

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