[Text] ☠ Missing something.

[nightprince]

[ ... Ryoji saw the contact list. It... was painful for him. Probably moreso than he wanted to admit. But he needed to tell the people who DID know her, right?

So it's through a text to everyone he does so, because he isn't sure he can do a video post on this. Looks like he'll be taking care of the tarantulas, but he won't forget, or regret. They were good friends. ]

to those that knew her, Vriska-chan has gone back to the veil.
i know not all of you guys were her friend and i understand not all of you got along with her
it was kind of my hope i could help change that and i wanted to try!!!!!!!!
but i just thought you should all know, anyway.

thats it really.
thanks.

[ And that's the end of the message. ]

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[derparcana.livejournal.com]

[ ... This is too important a conversation to leave on text. He can't stand it anymore. Although he puts a filter on it, just to be safe, so Equius has some privacy. ]

... I'm sorry. I wish I could--change it, somehow. I... I mean, despite what you might think, I don't think what happens to anyone is ever fair, but there's nothing I can do about it... the Goddess who... I suppose you would call her my guardian, but she wasn't much of one... she sought to ease that pain by nullifying all life.

... Humans suffer just like trolls, or anything else that lives... so she thought killing them, granting them a peaceful death would... give them what they wanted. An end to this unfairness.

[ He looks down. ]

But... but I believe that... that you are all alive for a reason! That as long as you have a choice, you can take the bad things that have happened to those you cared about and honor their memory. Do something worthy with it... I can't bring things back. I'm sorry.

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[stayb100ponyboy.livejournal.com]

[He switches to video too. Ryoji isn't the only one looking down.]

It all seems pretty meaningless sometimes, though. It's like... we're here, and then we're taken away, and then what? What's waiting on the other side except darkness?

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[derparcana.livejournal.com]

... How do you know that it's only darkness? Maybe this life is just one step toward the next stage. No one knows that for certain; not even me!

[ ... He manages a small smile. ]

You shouldn't worry about the other side so much as living in the now, Equius-san. It happens to everyone, but... your answer. Your reason for living... no one else can find that for you or tell you if your life means something. Life is the one thing we're all given that's fleeting, right? So why shouldn't you make the most of it instead...?

I think that's what your loved ones would want. ... It's what I want, too. Life is only cruel if you deem it so.

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[stayb100ponyboy.livejournal.com]

But my life won't be fleeting; that's the problem.

My moirail, most of my friends, almost everyone I know... bluebloods live a long time, a very long time, and... and everyone I know...

[Suddenly covers his face with his hand.]

Everyone I know will die before me. Everyone except... except Gamzee, and I can't leave him alone, Ryoji. I just can't.

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[derparcana.livejournal.com]

[ He frowns. ]

... Equius-san...

[ Heh. It's funny, really... the exact opposite problem, huh? ]

Then... shouldn't you value the time you have with them all the more? Especially Gamzee... he needs someone right now. He needs you, right? You're all still young! Right now... what you need to worry about isn't your blood.

Just because your blood is blue means you live a long time... that doesn't mean even you might not go tomorrow. Do you understand? Everything can die. Everything, everyone, any race, any blood, any age... so what are you going to do?

[ He is quiet for a moment. ] I don't presume I understand everything. But I do know that this means you're going to have to make a choice.

Are you going to try to make the most of who you have for as long as you have them? Or are you going to live in fear and just... wait for them to die? Because that wouldn't be giving Gamzee everything he deserves.

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[stayb100ponyboy.livejournal.com]

Around here, it doesn't really seem to matter, does it? Since they just disappear or get taken and you have no warning.

You don't... they... they don't even leave a body behind sometimes...

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[derparcana.livejournal.com]

... You're wrong. Every minute matters. Every single minute you spend with every single person matters, because no one ever knows what will happen next. Last I checked, people don't get advance notices when they're going to die, or when something happens.

[ Ryoji gives him a very serious look, taking in a deep, long breath.

He exhales. ... This apathy. This disillusionment. That was what they were fight--what he practically represented and he hated it. Minato DIED for it, and he would never, ever let anyone think that way if he could help. ]

If they could leave at any minute, then you need to make every second matter. ... If you're not living to the fullest or at least trying, then you may as well just never talk to anyone you care about ever again, because whether they're here or not, people ALWAYS come and go. If it's by death or by leaving, that doesn't change. Blaming Vatheon, however abnormal its means of operating might be, is an excuse.

[ ... It's obvious he feels very powerfully about the words he is speaking, and that Equius' attitude bothers him. ]

My friend gave his soul to give people a second chance. My life was taken and predestined to be destroyed. ... Ten minutes, ten thousand years--it doesn't matter how long. Every second is precious if you spend it to the fullest. So please don't tell me it doesn't matter.