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nightprince[ Ryoji hadn't noticed, but when he sat down on his bed, he accidentally turned his SFC on. Currently? The screen shows the little thought bubble following him around. His thoughts are vague, to an extent, at the moment, but what you'll notice is that the inside of the bubble is darker in color than most. Sort of like there's a little black mist inside it. The text on it is white. White, on black.
He's pacing in his dorm room at the moment. It's late, and he can't sleep. ]
He left.
[ A pause, a blink. A nod. It was reflecting his thoughts, huh? Yeah. But it wasn't really so bad... was it? An image of Minato--blue hair--comes up, then disappears. ]
It's my fault.
... I know.
[ Then an image of what looks like the moon, and then something big... with two sets wings, and a long sword. It's vague though, and it's hard to tell what it really is. It's only somewhat humanoid in shape. ]
Fighting it is... impossible. Maybe one day I'll just...
That won't happen...
[ This thought is a little more graphic. An image of some kids all wearing red armbands, being consumed by some sort of darkness, and then a hollow-looking, creepy white mask, eyeless, and smiling. And then lots of red blood. It flashes back as he shakes his head. ]
But how can it not, right?
I... I won't do that.
But I will. And then how will anyone stop me? You can't stop something like me. That's impossible.
It's... he did it. He still managed... it's okay. He's back now.
[ He takes a breath, getting up, and turns his back, trying to ignore that pestering, persistent, awful little bubble. He doesn't think it's so cool anymore. ]
But what if I do slip? What if they're wrong about how time passes? What then?
[ He falls silent. His biggest fears, and it was very, very right. He doesn't want to say it though. ]
I don't want to kill them. I don't want to hurt anyone. Vriska, Minato--I'm part of him but I took his life from him... because of me, his friends will never get to be with him at home. I really don't deserve to be a human, or even to feel. I never should have existed.
I... I really don't like this place right now... why does this have to happen to us? I hate these curses.
[ Eventually, Ryoji rests his head against a wall, closing his eyes, and biting his lip. The words keep going, though. Because he is, in fact, quite worried. ]
But blaming Vatheon isn't right. You wanted him to kill you because you're afraid, aren't you?
T-that isn't true. I've accepted it. It's inevitable.
[ The bubble continues heedlessly on, and Ryoji looks down at it with a defeated, pained expression. ] Without him, you don't even exist. Vriska, too! She validates your existence, but then when you're alone, what are you really? Just a shadow. A tool. Nyx's puppet. And then you don't even feel like you're real.
T-that's not true... I'm... I'm Ryoji. No one else. And I will never, ever be anything else. Minato-kun said so.
[ ... Ryoji tries to pop it as it continues on, but to no avail. After he tries to half-heartedly swat it away, he fails. So he instead returns to leaning his head against the dorm's wall, and then the feed cuts abruptly as a kitten hops onto the bed, and accidentally shuts the SFC off. ]
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Date: 2011-05-17 07:22 am (UTC)[ ... Now he's just really puzzled. ]
Determination... so it was me...?
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Date: 2011-05-17 07:36 am (UTC)[ Wandering~
... Hmmm... this CD... he picks it up, and looks at the back. On the tracklist--
Burn My Dread.
That... sounds like something he would like. And for some reason... it really rings some bells. Huh. He wonders why? ]
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Date: 2011-05-17 07:38 am (UTC)...ah.
A bit of a vague smile then, and well. It's just them, isn't it? Besides...he does love this song. And so he hums the first few notes, the first part of the song.
Ring any bells?]
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Date: 2011-05-17 07:44 am (UTC)Oh! Oh! This one! Let's get it, can we? I remember it now...!
[ Through Minato, but... details. ]
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Date: 2011-05-17 07:47 am (UTC)Also. It's...neat. That Ryoji remembers it.]
Of course. Why don't you just grab the CD. I'll show you how to put it onto your mp3 player.
We can come back a bit later to look more closely, if you want.
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Date: 2011-05-17 10:36 pm (UTC)[ Oh huh. Is he doing this wrong? :c His mom is so far from inspirational. ]
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Date: 2011-05-17 10:39 pm (UTC)Arf!
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Date: 2011-05-17 11:03 pm (UTC)[ Ammy you know so much. ;; Teach him your waaaays. ]
So you're supposed to be an example for people, then? I wonder how I could be that...
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Date: 2011-05-17 11:11 pm (UTC)[Video; filtered]
Date: 2011-05-18 12:09 am (UTC)[ He can only smile. Minato has given him so much. ]
He told me to give my own life meaning, though, too. So... I'm going to do that. He wants me to be my own person. And why shouldn't I be? I'm me, not him.
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Date: 2011-05-18 12:20 am (UTC)[ A little notepad appears in his bubble. He feels like he should be taking notes on this, man. ]
Hmm... you guys really have this covered. I guess I'm going to have to work a lot harder!
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Date: 2011-05-18 01:02 am (UTC)Alright then. It's settled.
[ And he hops up. ]
Go get some rest, okay?
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Date: 2011-05-18 01:33 am (UTC)[ He shakes his head, then reaches a hand up to his forehead. ]
I'm me. [ The voice reverberates with Riku's mouth in his thought bubble. ] Heh. You are lucky - to have come so far.
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Date: 2011-05-18 01:37 am (UTC)[ Then he clicks off the video feed - not even sure himself if he'd answer another non-video message from Ryoji. He was just getting too worked up in his own head about everything Ryoji now believed about himself, and how much he wanted that for himself. ]
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Date: 2011-05-18 02:13 am (UTC)It's always you. All the time.
Life's gonna toss some shit at you kid, that's guaranteed. But s'all on you 'bout how yer gonna deal with it.
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Date: 2011-05-18 03:52 am (UTC)... You're a really weird guy.
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Date: 2011-05-18 03:59 am (UTC)You've got a lot of kinks in your character too, kid. Take advantage of 'em.
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Date: 2011-05-18 04:18 am (UTC)Are you a pirate?
[ Because this is a very important question. ]
[voice → video]
Date: 2011-05-18 04:30 am (UTC)Not sure what tipped you off first, kid.
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Date: 2011-05-18 04:40 am (UTC)Well, Vriska-chan really likes pirates! I learned a bunch of stuff from her... and you sounded like one!
[ He feels so good. Have an excited kid. ]
I was right! That is totally cool!
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Date: 2011-05-18 09:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-05-19 12:18 am (UTC)[ He seriously feels like he needs to go do something tomorrow, man. ]
I guess I'll talk to you later! Maybe we can go do something fun.
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Date: 2011-05-19 04:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-05-19 06:58 am (UTC)Alright. How about next time we run into each other, we'll go do something? It's kinda late right now, after all.
[ A nod. ]
So... goodnight, Amaterasu-san. Thanks.
[ Click!
Did he just talk to a dog? heck yeah he did.]no subject
Date: 2011-05-20 03:04 am (UTC)Yeah alright. We done, kid? You got over yourself?